Shit on Tumblr

Ok, I've been avoiding this subject for a while now, I tried to ignore all this awful shit that lately has been filling my tumblr dashboard.

FUCKING PRO-ANA SHIT.

I agree, I can't understand what is like to be chubby or fat or anything, because I'm skinny.
But I know that anorexia is a disease and it's not funny. Exactly like depression isn't funny, schizophrenia isn't funny, OCD isn't funny and so on. There isn't a single fucking disease that is actually funny.

So why does this all look like a funny game to you?

How can you be reblogging pro-ana stuff? Why don't we reblog pro-cancer stuff then? Or pro-AIDS? Pro-TBC perhaps? It's vintage, isn't it? Too mainstream? Try pro-cholera!

What the actual fuck?

Why? Why are you doing it? Why are you doing your best to teach people how to ruin their lives getting sick, how to starve themselves? Just to look skinny, be thinner, be a walking skeleton. WHY.
How can you sleep at night knowing that someone might be following you into this?

The worst part is that usually who's reblogging this is just doing it as a self inspiration.
They're not actually anorexic but it gives them a "troubled existence" look...

But it's ok, just know I absolutely despise you.

This post is actually to inform you all that I'll unfollow whoever posts this kind of bullshit, because I don't want to risk reblogging something that'll lead people to that kind of blog.
I love my followers and I don't want them to get sick or to suffer.

I'm off cleaning up my tumblr.

Haru loves you.

Nearly done

So tomorrow's the last day before Lucca Comics.

I'm really excited about it, I can't wait!

My bag's nearly done, I just have a few things to put in before leaving and then I'll be officially off for adventure!

My outfits are all ready and I'm pretty happy about them.

News: I finihed watching the first season of Supernatural and... well it ends quite badly. All I could think of was "I LIKE TRAINS" and I just sat there rumbling about what an awful end it was. Anyway I'm already watching season 2 and it looks pretty cool. But the site just won't work, I hate it so much...

I'm also reading a shitload of fanfics about Homestuck. I'm gonna write a post about the ones I loved the most and I already have a couple of them that I really want you all to read. Don't worry, I'm a multishipper but I'm mostly into popular ships.
Anyway if you have some fics you'd like me to read just tell me and I'll be glad to, the pairing doesn't matter and, this is important, I'm gonna read them even if they're awfully angsty. Really.
I usually don't read angst but.. fuck it, I'm young (?)

Ok babes, I'll go get the last things ready.

Haru loves you

Denial

So... apparently I started watching Supernatural.

I'm going to watch the 16th episode of the first season and I like it so far. Ised to watch random episodes when I stumbled upon them on tv but it's usually quite late and I'm not really into watching tv so I never really followed any series.

Ok, I loved House but that's not the point.

I'm not really sure about what made me want to watch Supernatural but I like to think that it's Dean's fault (Jensen Ackles' fault?). Let's face it. He's hot.
He's probably one of those few last men that make me actually bisexual and not a complete lesbian. Robert Downey Jr is another one of those few adorable men. God, I love Ironman.

Anyway I really want to think that it's just beacuse of sweet adorable Dean. I really do.

I really want to believe that this has absolutely nothing to do with that absurd amount of gifs where Castiel looks like a completely lost puppy that really does not get why having a pee on the carpet makes its owner so so so angry.

Come on.

He's a lovely puppy and you know you like it (?)

I'm gonna ask OWL if I can have one. I'll tell Rika I'll take him out on walks and feed him and buy him a flea collar and stuff.
I just really want one.
Rika... Rika if you're reading this... I'LL CALL HIM DENIAL. Please
Please.

Haru loves you.

Ran Mao

Today I finished the dress for my Ran Mao cosplay!

I'm cosplaying a ball version of Ran Mao with OWL being Ciel and Alois.

I'm glad of how the dress is r/n and I can't wait to wear it the last two days at Lucca Comics! I'm no going to show you the whole dress but here's a small detail...

I'm still working on other parts of my cosplay but I won't tell you where I'm using this!!

Kind of a small post but I really wanted to show you this shit I'm working on! I didn't show you anything relevant though.
I guess I'm just that mean.

Haru loves you

Lucca Comics and Gigapause

Sorry for this late update.

I've been kind of busy getting ready for Lucca Comics and I still am not done! I still have to work a bit on my cosplay and on my original trikster outfit, but today I went to Turin with Rika and Shane to get the last things we need for our outfits and stuff! Lucca's starting in a week and I really can't wait for the National Harajuku Fashion Walk!! I kind of hate it that I have so little time left so I'm starting to panic but it's quite normal. I'm... usually over reacting to shit all the time.

And talking about over reacting to stuff... I'm absolutely out of my mind about the GIGAPAUSE that Hussie announced six days ago. I'm surprised it took nearly a week for me to process this... thing. Usually I cope quite faster with sudden events (by over reacting, of course).

I didn't expect it. At all.

It might be because I've been into Homestuck for something like five months or less and so... I didn't get to see past pauses. Or maybe I didn't really read what Hussie wrote before (no, I did but I'm not stalkering him on twitter and stuff). Or maybe I'm just a complete idiot because I really don't get things until I stumble upon them.

I'm not angry or stuff, don't get me wrong. I understand he's got a shitload of work to do to finish properly this awesome webcomic (also I guess I'll read Problem Sleuth when Homestuck's over) and I'm glad he's going to get a pause to do it.

I just don't understand why now and why he's going to post it all at once.

I've been thinking about it (insted of doing what I have to for the upcoming comic con in Lucca) and... I don't get it. Right now the story is so complicated and the situation is just... so weird. Why did he stop now if he's saying he's doing it now to avoid interrupting the story at even weirder moments? He could have done it right before Act 6 Act 6 Intermission 2 (?) I mean when John was buried alive by Caliborn's weird Daves (I guess my sentence lost all its sense a while ago... anyway yay for PepsiCola!). That was a simple point int he story and this would have not been so... painful? Sudden? idk

I also wonder why is he going to post it all at once. I mean... the story is quite interesting right now, to post the rest of it in small chunks like he did until now would bring a lot of views to the site and... well probably the internet would survive..?

I... I think I gave up at understandig Hussie a long time ago, though.

So I'm kind of ok with this all. Also the hiatus fandom is quite funny with all those sprite edits and weird stuff.

I'm using the word "weird" way too often in this post.

Now, since I'm an idiot I guess a lot of you noticed a shitload of details I did not see at all, but I'm wondering if somewhere, somewhen, in a panel that I really didn't pay attention to... there was some hint about Dave's and John's whereabouts.
I didn' see John in a while ("...buried alive by Caliborn's weird Daves...") and also Dave just flew off somewhere.

"can't talk
chasing dogs"

I wish I knew where this two are. Also Sollux. Hell, I miss Sollux! He's my fave troll and if I remember it right I las saw him flying away with Fef and AA... neh, I'm sad now.

I'm also kind of sad because Homestuck's going to end. I think it's somehow close to the idea of death and I guess that's something I still can't understand... it's like I can't really imagine it. o.o I really should work on this, I once hear that kids usually get to understand death and I still can't... well, shit.

So... have a nice gigapause, I guess.

Haru loves you

Girls

I believe that somewhere out there there's the right person for every one.

I also think it's not just one, I think there are several girls and boys that would be ok for every one.

I have absolutely no doubt about this.

I think about it often, because I wish I could spend this years with her. Yep I think I'm looking for a girl, I'm not sure of how much I can trust a man and it's not like men are bad or such, it's a personal issue. I really can't say I'm having nice examples of men in my family and also if I look around I really can't say I feel ok or safe. I just feel so much more at ease with girls. So I guess I'm looking for a girl.

I thought about this so much I actually have some headcanons about her. They're so random, I don't even know where to start... one of them was that she probably is a scorpio, ascendant gemini. Maybe she's got slightly tanned skin. And she's got a great ass. *smirk*

Anyway that was not the point.

What I was trying to tell you is that I'm so fond of my headcanons that everytime someone fits, even in just one of them I immediately consider her. But I never date anyone because they hardly fit in every headcanon, and I'm always thinking "what if I end up dating the wrong one and do not notice the real one when I meet her?".

This scares me so much.

I still hope I'll find her though. Somehow. Idek.

Haru loves you

Prophecies?

Hey!

I didn't post in a while, I'm sorry, I've been kind of busy with my cosplay and stuff!

Today I finally bought a couple of wigs to cosplay Dave Strider from Homestuck! I love Dave so much (I know, you all already know.) and so I'm gonna cosplay him at the next Torino Comics, in April (probably in April?) and I'll also have a John! YEAH!

Uh I also bought a mint wig to cosplay his trickster version someday? Maybe? Hell I just like that wig ok?

It's the first time I buy something over the internet all on my own so I really hope I didn't fuck up. But it looks like it's ok so... ok.

Also today I'm quite happy because yesterday I finally made up my mind and told a really cute and sweet girl that I was sorry if I made or relationship awkward. Well kind of. I don't think I actually said that, but anyway now everything's fine and we've been talking a lot and I'm far more comfortable talking with her now than any other time in the history of our friendship! I feel like I finally undestand what's on her mind and that's great!
I really hope she's fine with this as well.

Lately I've been kind of excited about something I can't really pinpoint. It's like, something big is about to happen or... Idk. I've been pestering OWL for a while now about this and they've been so nice to me, even if I guess I can be a bit of a pain in the ass when I'm in a "random-prophetic" mood. So I guess I really have to thank them for being so patient with me.
When I get like this I feel like Sollux, everything's fine and people are unaware but... I CAN HEAR THEM.
Jk, but really, thank you girls. I owe you so much.

Well I guess that's all.

Haru loves you <3