This all started because I noticed that some people who claim to like me (like... more than friends?) don't really talk to me.
I mean, they chat with me but they don't know anything about me because... they don't ask.
All out chats are like
How are you?
I'm fine and you?
Awwwww so cute! You're fine! So sweet *^*
And the same happens for... anything I say. It's just... a constant reminder about how cute/sweet/adorable I can be... while doing anything apparently.
Am I the only one who thinks this is fucked up?
I'm not even that ok with the idea of being cute (it's kind of the adorabloodthirsty thing from homestuck) but I can somehow deal with it.
Since I'm a girl and being a short girl will just give everybody the right to assume you're innocent and need someone to defend you from all the bad guys out there.
Bitch please.
But most of all... do I look like I have some kind of lack of affection or... hell idk. I may have some issue with my parents not showing me enough love or stuff but NO.
I do not want to be treated like a puppy. Hell I can be useful and strong and whatever, don't talk to me like I'm some kind of doll whose only purpose is to sit around being cute.
Holy shit.
But then this triggered something else.
What if they do that just because... they don't really care? I mean, they all say they want to be close to OWL and stuff so...
WHAT IF
I'm just the easiest way to get to OWL.
Since I'm the only one that's single.
This really fucked up my whole brain.
But Rika told me that's just how people usually flirt with you when they don't know you.
This is still pretty fucked up since I post and talk about myself so much it hurts (no really, it damages people's brain and patience, I'm sorry) but ok, I'll deal with it.
Haru loves you.
