Shingeki no Kyojin

Well... guess what I just saw?

SHINGEKI NO KYOJIN?

Yeah how did you know?

Ah, the title of this post? I see... I should stop making dramatic spoilers in titles, shouldn't I? Oh, you say that's what the title is for? Well shit.

Now back to the topic!

.+*+. SPIOLERS .+*+.

If you speak italian I've got good news for you!

You can watch this video about my opinion about SnK and just get over with it! YOOOO

If you don't you'll have to read this post about it, I'm sorry.

First things first!

I hate Eren. He's an idiot. I'd punch him in the face every time he opens his mouth to speak.

Aaaaaand.... well it's kind of embarassing... but I really love Jean. I think he's the only one that had any sense (untill a sudden death fucked him up and made him just about as stupid as anyone else).

Also Annie was somehow a smart girl but well... we all know how it ended and if you don't you should watch it and get to know how it ends.

Also I know that it's not the end at all.

The manga goes on from where the anime ends but GUESS WHAT? I'm not gonna read it.

Because... I was a super happy girl walkign around on tumblr but then I took what looked like a spoiler to the knee. And I guess Jean's gonna die around chapter 58 or something like that.

And since I'm such a child when it comes to my fave characters dying, aka I stop reading coz I hate it all and I'm gonna pretend I don't care but I'm gonna kill whoever decided that killing that character was fun or necessary.

So... yeah I'm just gonna stick to the anime and drown in my little puddle of denial.

Also I didn't cry when Marco died. Because I didn't really get how bad it was for Jean (but the corpse made me feel kinda nauseous).

I nearly cry over fanfics tho and now... I really feel bad every time I think about it.

I SHIP THEM SO HARD IT HURTS.

Last time a ship hurt that much I was elbow deep in DenNor and reading Gutters by Glassamilk. I cried my eyes out that time.

If you know of a fanfic that's just THAT sad about Jean and Marco... please tell me. And I won't read it untill someday when I'll think I can take it and I'll find out too late that NOPE I CAN'T ABORT MISSION ABORTI MISSION but it'll be too late and I'm gonna curse me, you, this blog and the writer for life.

Well, gotta go now.

Haru loves Jean you.

TC and HFW ftw

So...

It's been a while I know.

I just suck at keeping up blogs and stuff, sorry.

I've been not really busy but... well whatever.

One of the most important things is that I was at Torino Comics and I really liked it!

Thanks to Simone Forelli for the great picture! I really love it!

This is the first cosplay I really enjoyed doing and wearing. The past ones were either characters I didn't think fitted me well or I didn't really know much about so... I really liked being Gamzee at this con! owo

I was with Rika (Feferi) and Shane (Eridan), we had a lot of fun and met other homestucks!

I expected homestucks to be more, tho.

But it was awesome and I look forward to do more cosplays and go to more cons like this one.


I also chopped off my hair because I was tired of how long it was so during the Harajuku Fashion Walk in Turin I had short short short hair!

Everyone was so fab! I just can't wait for the next one to see them all again!

Haru loves you!

Hospital

I guess this is kind of important.

Being a nurse (nearly) I heard a lot of stories about "how it feels when you're about to faint" and it sounds like it's something you absolutely notice, no matter what.

You start to sweat, you feel weak, your sight gets shitty and then you're on the floor waiting to wake up.

Well, I experienced it yesterday for the first time in my whole life.

And first of all... it's pretty shitty. But let me tell you hw things went...

I didn't sleep, or if I slept... they were some bad z's. That's because my tummy hurt like a motherfucker. But I didn't think anything of it. I mean I ate a lot of fastfood and unhealty stuff during the weekend so it made sense.

I decided to get up and get something to drink, I was pretty sleepy and my legs felt somewhat wobbly but... why would that be weird?
So coming back to my room I felt really tired and looked at my bed. Just a few steps.

All I remember is my butt hitting the floor and then I woke up on the floor.

And the I threw up. A lot.

Later I went to the hospital since I couldn' get up without fainting again and the doctor told me I got gastroenteritis. The one with pretty high temperature.


But the point is not the gastroenteritis.

The point is that fainting can feel like a lot of different things and that's what makes it so shitty.

For me is just feeling confused and seeing weird brownish pixels at the edge of my vision but that's not how it feels to everyone. So if you never experienced it, when you're feeling strange or weak or whatever... just sit down, whereever you are and wait for it to go away, and ask for help and get checked up.

Because it could be nothing, but it could be pretty serious as well.

Haru loves you.

Ever.

Hello there!

I think you all remember the dramatic scene from Pile of cells. No, of course you don't, I know. Because I didn't give a crap about people reading it so I didn't spam it at all. owo

Anyway now you know about it and what I wanted to tell you is that... she did notice, I did tell her and she DID want this useless pile of cells!

And I'm glad!

I am now ready to tell you all!

Her name's Claudia and she's cute, adorable and omg I reaaaaally like her! owo

We're gonna go on a date next week and it'll be sooooo cool, I just can't wait to see her and hug her! It's been a while (a week? a week and a half?) since the last time I saw her! And also last time I still thought this was all some one-sided sad-as-fuck feeling so I didn't do much. Or talk to her much.
God, I was trying so hard not to stare at her or just randomly blush when she smiled çAç so so so hard.

MY KOKORO WAS GOING ALL DOKI DOKI

and I couldn't help it .-.

The week before I had to deal with a lot of random anxiety because I would remember at random times that she was coming over and I'd just... panic. I did my best to make it all perfect (and failed epically) for her and omg. SO. MUCH. PANIC.

I'm not even used to it. I'm a calm girl I do not panic, I never panic... until I do. çAç That shit's creepy ok? I do not like being all anxious and stuff. I hate it.

My life, my mind was so fucked up I stopped talking to her for three days straight, right after meeting her, because I felt like shit just thinking about her being disappointed about me, my house, my food, my cats, my family... hell, everything. I even felt bad for my fucking washing machine. MY WASHING MACHINE. Ok, now you know I can panic.

I really hope this won't happen never ever again. Ever. I don't like it. I want to be calm and the happy-go-lucky girl I usually am. No panic. Not ever. EVER.

Haru loves you.

(ever.)

Honk

Hello there!

In case you were wondering... I had a little chat with this girl and DID NOT TELL HER, but she might not hate me so yay *^*

Also everyone's telling me she might even like me so I'm happy and I'm def gonna keep flirting. I'm even trying to make it a bit more... evident? Idk.

Anyway I'm happy.

And... I've been working on my cosplay for the Torino Comics!

I'm gonna cosplay as Gamzee Makara from Homestuck.

I'm cosplaying as him even if he's not my fave character (that'd be Dave) and even my favourite alpha (is he an alpha?) troll. That'd be Sol. Definitely Sol.

But I like him, I think he's pretty funny untill... uh... well you know.

SPOILER

I don't really like sober Gamzee, he's still pretty funny now and then but I really can't get over the fact that he randomply killed Equius and Nepeta.
I'd also feel even worse since I'll probably be hangin' around with a sweet Nepeta çAç
I feel so guilty. (?)
Anyway that's why I'm not a sober Gamzee and I'll be a sweet deeply on drugs miracle-blinded Gamzee <3

He's so adorable. Just like a kid.

END SPOILER.

So...

I've got my shoes done and my horns are nearly ready!

I still have to make the dots on my pants and the shirt's being printed *^* I can't wait to put it all on!

Also I'll be using snazaroo's colours light grey and white (I plan on using white for some random shironuri as well).

I'm waiting for the wig. I'll have to style it, or better, Rika will style it.

She's lucky I don't have my horn yet or else I'd be randomly honking at her during the styling process XD

Yup, I'm just that horrible.

Well if you'll see a Gamzee at Torino Comics you know it'll probably be me! I don't think there'll be other Gamzees (?)

Haru loves you!

Pile of Cells

So, today's kind of a weird day.

Ok, all of my days are weird, so probably they're just plaind boring days and I'm completely insane.

But today that's not the point. Or maybe it is. Idk.

Anyway I've been getting a lot of news about the girl I like and stuff and... I feel like crap.

But I'd better start from the beginning and it's that... I just had a rad weekend and I slept something like 4 hours in the last two days so I'm probably just having a random mental break down.

The girl I like is like... woah. She's awesome. I really really like her and I feel so happy when I'm with her and I'm a little awkward shit so she probably does not know at all or just ignores me.

If she's ignoring me... that'd break my heart, brain and everything. But it's fine and I'd just get over it hiding all the shit under the mat an stuff.

Omg I'm such an idiot.

Well anyway I've been getting news about her and I'm sad as fuck because she probably thinks I am the worst thing in the whole world so... yay.

I'd just give up and fuck off but I'm so tired of getting over her and falling fo her again the first time I see her or talk or chat or even hear her name. I'M SO TIRED of not being able to go on.

So I'm just gonna keep flirting. And I do not flirt because I don't know how to so I'll just keep being randomly nice to her with little invisible things that she does not notice so yeah.

I'm a useless pile of cells and salty water, what am I even.

Haru loves you

I'm not cute.

In this past week I've been sick, I've felt sad, alone, hopeless and... alone again and... well I felt like shit ok?

This all started because I noticed that some people who claim to like me (like... more than friends?) don't really talk to me.
I mean, they chat with me but they don't know anything about me because... they don't ask.

All out chats are like


How are you?

I'm fine and you?

Awwwww so cute! You're fine! So sweet *^*


And the same happens for... anything I say. It's just... a constant reminder about how cute/sweet/adorable I can be... while doing anything apparently.

Am I the only one who thinks this is fucked up?

I'm not even that ok with the idea of being cute (it's kind of the adorabloodthirsty thing from homestuck) but I can somehow deal with it.
Since I'm a girl and being a short girl will just give everybody the right to assume you're innocent and need someone to defend you from all the bad guys out there.

Bitch please.

But most of all... do I look like I have some kind of lack of affection or... hell idk. I may have some issue with my parents not showing me enough love or stuff but NO.

I do not want to be treated like a puppy. Hell I can be useful and strong and whatever, don't talk to me like I'm some kind of doll whose only purpose is to sit around being cute.

Holy shit.

But then this triggered something else.

What if they do that just because... they don't really care? I mean, they all say they want to be close to OWL and stuff so...

WHAT IF

I'm just the easiest way to get to OWL.

Since I'm the only one that's single.

This really fucked up my whole brain.

But Rika told me that's just how people usually flirt with you when they don't know you.
This is still pretty fucked up since I post and talk about myself so much it hurts (no really, it damages people's brain and patience, I'm sorry) but ok, I'll deal with it.

Haru loves you.