TC and HFW ftw

So...

It's been a while I know.

I just suck at keeping up blogs and stuff, sorry.

I've been not really busy but... well whatever.

One of the most important things is that I was at Torino Comics and I really liked it!

Thanks to Simone Forelli for the great picture! I really love it!

This is the first cosplay I really enjoyed doing and wearing. The past ones were either characters I didn't think fitted me well or I didn't really know much about so... I really liked being Gamzee at this con! owo

I was with Rika (Feferi) and Shane (Eridan), we had a lot of fun and met other homestucks!

I expected homestucks to be more, tho.

But it was awesome and I look forward to do more cosplays and go to more cons like this one.


I also chopped off my hair because I was tired of how long it was so during the Harajuku Fashion Walk in Turin I had short short short hair!

Everyone was so fab! I just can't wait for the next one to see them all again!

Haru loves you!

Honk

Hello there!

In case you were wondering... I had a little chat with this girl and DID NOT TELL HER, but she might not hate me so yay *^*

Also everyone's telling me she might even like me so I'm happy and I'm def gonna keep flirting. I'm even trying to make it a bit more... evident? Idk.

Anyway I'm happy.

And... I've been working on my cosplay for the Torino Comics!

I'm gonna cosplay as Gamzee Makara from Homestuck.

I'm cosplaying as him even if he's not my fave character (that'd be Dave) and even my favourite alpha (is he an alpha?) troll. That'd be Sol. Definitely Sol.

But I like him, I think he's pretty funny untill... uh... well you know.

SPOILER

I don't really like sober Gamzee, he's still pretty funny now and then but I really can't get over the fact that he randomply killed Equius and Nepeta.
I'd also feel even worse since I'll probably be hangin' around with a sweet Nepeta çAç
I feel so guilty. (?)
Anyway that's why I'm not a sober Gamzee and I'll be a sweet deeply on drugs miracle-blinded Gamzee <3

He's so adorable. Just like a kid.

END SPOILER.

So...

I've got my shoes done and my horns are nearly ready!

I still have to make the dots on my pants and the shirt's being printed *^* I can't wait to put it all on!

Also I'll be using snazaroo's colours light grey and white (I plan on using white for some random shironuri as well).

I'm waiting for the wig. I'll have to style it, or better, Rika will style it.

She's lucky I don't have my horn yet or else I'd be randomly honking at her during the styling process XD

Yup, I'm just that horrible.

Well if you'll see a Gamzee at Torino Comics you know it'll probably be me! I don't think there'll be other Gamzees (?)

Haru loves you!

I'm not cute.

In this past week I've been sick, I've felt sad, alone, hopeless and... alone again and... well I felt like shit ok?

This all started because I noticed that some people who claim to like me (like... more than friends?) don't really talk to me.
I mean, they chat with me but they don't know anything about me because... they don't ask.

All out chats are like


How are you?

I'm fine and you?

Awwwww so cute! You're fine! So sweet *^*


And the same happens for... anything I say. It's just... a constant reminder about how cute/sweet/adorable I can be... while doing anything apparently.

Am I the only one who thinks this is fucked up?

I'm not even that ok with the idea of being cute (it's kind of the adorabloodthirsty thing from homestuck) but I can somehow deal with it.
Since I'm a girl and being a short girl will just give everybody the right to assume you're innocent and need someone to defend you from all the bad guys out there.

Bitch please.

But most of all... do I look like I have some kind of lack of affection or... hell idk. I may have some issue with my parents not showing me enough love or stuff but NO.

I do not want to be treated like a puppy. Hell I can be useful and strong and whatever, don't talk to me like I'm some kind of doll whose only purpose is to sit around being cute.

Holy shit.

But then this triggered something else.

What if they do that just because... they don't really care? I mean, they all say they want to be close to OWL and stuff so...

WHAT IF

I'm just the easiest way to get to OWL.

Since I'm the only one that's single.

This really fucked up my whole brain.

But Rika told me that's just how people usually flirt with you when they don't know you.
This is still pretty fucked up since I post and talk about myself so much it hurts (no really, it damages people's brain and patience, I'm sorry) but ok, I'll deal with it.

Haru loves you.

Teeth

Hello.

You know what? I'm kinda scared.

Every damn actor or singer or whatever has the exact same teeth.

They're all the same lenght, similar dimension and with absolutely innocent looking canines. And it really upsets me.

It's not really important, I mean, they're still hot as hell but it's just like... if teeth are just like fingerprints, unique and stuff... why do they look so alike.

I know, they're fake and stuff.

But my teeth are really different from Rika's or Shane's and the same goes for everyone I know.

They look all the same, it's weird. Looks weird.

Don't get me wrong. I still love all of my idols!

Haru loves you!

Jpop, jokes and... a doll?

Hello!

Yesterday I went to Turin with OWL!

We organized the Jpop themed meet in our region so we met up with a lot of awesome people at 8gallery!

At 8.30 am we took the train heading to Turin even though the meet was scheduled for lunch because we wanted to try a new way to get there and since we're quite good at getting lost... lmao
We didn't get lost though and ended up being there pretty early, but there are a lot of shops and we just wandered there watching shop windows!

At 12 people started showing up and an hour later we finally got something to eat, I was starving!

We played DDR and some other random games and entered some shops looking for good sales! There were some super-cute things but they were still too expensive!

At 6.30 pm we got on the train heading home!

I want to thank everyone that was there and here's a random pic! Even though some people's missing o.o

I got a lot of fun and met new and interesting people! Thank you all!

And also, I'm done watching the 7th season of Supernatural and... that was kind of random. I'm happy though, because insane Cas in the last episodes was hilarious and I really loved the "pull my finger" thing. It was awesome. I really laughed. Damn, Dean and Sam have both a shitty sense of humor, really.
And little Cas needs some encouragement about his jokes.

Anyway I'll start the next season asap because I'm just too courious and also I can't wait to get to the 9th one because tumblr tells me there might be some interesting moments kinda Destiel and I just can't wait.

I can't wait.

Also I was thinking that I might want to destroy my self confidence trying to sew a doll. Not sure if a Castiel doll or a troll doll (not sure if Karkat or what, I really can't decide). I know I'll probably fail at it epically but I guess I'll try. I just need to figure out how to do it... like how to cut the fabric right to make the head and stuff like that.

Haru loves you.

The road so far

Ok, now imagine some AC/DC music playing and just read this huge clichè of a post.

So this is some good old recap of my last year. Nope I won't do every month or every fucking event or stuff like that. I'm gonna do it like this...

People tend to turn life into four different quadrants: work, love, money and spirituality.

So here you go.

Work. And if I think about work I think of OWL or school.

It's been ok.

I mean I had some trouble in school, mostly because I'm lazy and I really hate my university, teachers and burocracy, just a bunch of assholes, but I just have a little bit of work to do and I'll be finally done with it.

And I have to say that I'm actually pretty proud of how OWL did this year. Ok, we haven't been as active as last year but I really had fun and I feel like I improved a bit with all the j-fashion thing and... I'm glad. I attended the National Harajuku Walk and I've been creating some cute stuff for my outfits... I'm happy!

And I still think this is the only thing that counts.


Now let's talk about love.

I'm still fucking single.

And I kind of miss the feeling of being loved and stuff. I mean OWL do a great job and I know they love me a fucking lot but... It's different. And I don't even know how, I'm not talking about sex, I'm talking about the way you feel in your head when you're in love and loved back.

Hell I don't even know.

Here, have a cute Cas with a hamburger.

Money.

What about money. Well I'm still not rich, but I had enough. I bought nearly everything I wanted and I've been living kind of ok through this year.

Lately shit's been getting worse and I'm... I'm starting to feel kind of hungry and angry at my family and stuff. But I should have talked about this in the "love" part and I won't do it here. Nor will I go back and add this shit in the right place.

Basically: Money, I wish I had more but who wouldn't?


Spirituality or mind or whatever you want to call this.

I'm ok.

I think this was the most eventful part of my life during this year.

I've been reading and learning about wicca and, well, different kinds of philosphy and I really liked it. I think I believe in karma and how our thoughts can lead us to a better or worse life. I've been doing my best trying to think happy thoughts and... I think it works. At least I feel more relaxed and ready to face all the shit that the world may want to throw at me.
I feel more... at ease with the whole world.

Well, what else.

This year I read Homestuck, and so I finally got over my fear of aliens and such. I'm glad because I was really scared and I didn't do things like stargazing just because of this.

I want to thank OWL for putting up with me and all my shit without making me feel guilty about it. I'm glad I have friends like them, I mean, we're a group, we're into fashion and stuff together but... even if they were "only" friends I'd still be incredibly happy to have them by side. They're like sisters and now and then I think about it and I feel like someday I'll just look at them and wonder what should I call them because... someday our bond will be way stronger than a simple brotherhood... and I really don't know how I'm gonna call it.
I just hope this will keep getting better, 'cause they deserve to be happy and I'd be glad to be with them to share beautiful moments.

Also I met a lot of awesome people, some of them do not know this but I really really like them. I wish them the best and I'd fight for them. I'll make sure to tell them someday that whatever trouble they're into they can count me in for support of any kind.
Hell I wish I wasn't this shy. I wish I could tell them clearly what I think and feel for them and just... let them know I'll be there if they'll ever need help.
I really wish I wasn't so fucking shy.
My life could be so easy.

Well I wish you all a happy nea year. I hope 2014 will be better than 2013, for you and for me.

Have a nice last day in this year, party hard and be happy, the future's so near.

Haru loves you.

Denial

So... apparently I started watching Supernatural.

I'm going to watch the 16th episode of the first season and I like it so far. Ised to watch random episodes when I stumbled upon them on tv but it's usually quite late and I'm not really into watching tv so I never really followed any series.

Ok, I loved House but that's not the point.

I'm not really sure about what made me want to watch Supernatural but I like to think that it's Dean's fault (Jensen Ackles' fault?). Let's face it. He's hot.
He's probably one of those few last men that make me actually bisexual and not a complete lesbian. Robert Downey Jr is another one of those few adorable men. God, I love Ironman.

Anyway I really want to think that it's just beacuse of sweet adorable Dean. I really do.

I really want to believe that this has absolutely nothing to do with that absurd amount of gifs where Castiel looks like a completely lost puppy that really does not get why having a pee on the carpet makes its owner so so so angry.

Come on.

He's a lovely puppy and you know you like it (?)

I'm gonna ask OWL if I can have one. I'll tell Rika I'll take him out on walks and feed him and buy him a flea collar and stuff.
I just really want one.
Rika... Rika if you're reading this... I'LL CALL HIM DENIAL. Please
Please.

Haru loves you.

Ran Mao

Today I finished the dress for my Ran Mao cosplay!

I'm cosplaying a ball version of Ran Mao with OWL being Ciel and Alois.

I'm glad of how the dress is r/n and I can't wait to wear it the last two days at Lucca Comics! I'm no going to show you the whole dress but here's a small detail...

I'm still working on other parts of my cosplay but I won't tell you where I'm using this!!

Kind of a small post but I really wanted to show you this shit I'm working on! I didn't show you anything relevant though.
I guess I'm just that mean.

Haru loves you

Exploring

Last weekend I went out with OWL and we decided to explore a bit.

We walked a bit in my hometown, looking for the old buildings and things like that. I'm really kind of surprised of how cool can this shitty town be.

Anyway here are some pics we took.

random pic of a -kind of- abandoned building we found.

This is Rika in the biggest church in town.

Rika wearing lolita is so cute

This is Shane

Some empty buildings are creepy.

This is me.

Ex-hospitals are weird.

I think is kind of funny how I ended up exploring shit in quite short shorts and my explorer shoes.

I bet I never told you how I have a lot of shoes and how I identify them in random ways. I should do a post about them. I probably will.

Anyway I had loads of fun doing this!

Haru loves you.

Kraken graphics

So, today I finally decided it would be nice to have an aesthetically acceptale blog so... I changed it a bit.

New background, new header and what not.

The header has got my NEW LOGO in it. Yup this little sweet kraken's my new mascot or whatever.

I still have to put my name on it but I'm really lazy so I guess I'll do it when I really need it. This might occour soon but it's 2 am and I really can't find any fucks to give.

Yup I did all of this lame graphics (ALL OF THEM) and I'm quite proud actually. I think I am able to not suck at it and I guess the header shows it! *so so so proud*

So if you want you can use the background (spread the kraken's love!) and you can find it here. You can't use my logo and header because the small kraken is mine and you can't have it.
Draw your own kraken, I guess?

Now that my whole blog is littered with krakens I feel ok and I'll go to sleep peacefully.

Oh, right. The tiny kraken has got cream on its head because my nickname is usually Krakenpastries. I just thought you should know.

Omg it's nearly 3 am, I really gotta go!

Btw, comments are not illegal.

Haru loves you <3

Serious

I shuould start blogging in a serious way.

No, I don't mean talking about politics or war and things like that. God, I'm an idiot and I'm so damn happy.

I mean I should blog more, telling you guys about my life and me and... well, anything. But I can't bring myself to do it.

It's not like I don't love you guys. I know you read me (or used to, on the other blog Zeus, Prussia and butter cookies) but I'm just a small ball of lazyness so... I don't blog at all.

Now I'm not gonna go and say "yeah this time I'll do it" because I don't know if I will but... I'll try. I swear.

Well here's my face.

Chiyuki took this pic of me and Rika at Picta Matsuri Special <3 I had so much fun! XD

But now I'm sick so I guess I'll be off doing my best to keep my dinner where it belongs!

Haru loves you <3

Mascot!outfit

First post! I'm so happy~

Yesterday I was at the lolita mini-meet that Rika Liddell organized! I wasn't wearing anything lolita because I was actually the mascot of the meet so... I was a dog.

That's the outfit I was wearing~

I got the wig in a random shop, I don't even remember where actually. Rika cut the bangs and did the buns.

The collar is really a leather dog-collar and the leash was a plain black leash, we added some lace to make it look more "lolita". The dog tag was made by my dad~

I'd love to tell you how to get what I wa wearing but they where all bought a bunch of time ago or either gifts so... I'm sorry!

Find out about the meet here~

Pic by Alice Chiyuki, @ Steamboat, Turin